THE EIGHT FIXATION = EXTERIORIZED ANGER POINT
LOBIDA
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"Well, well, well. So nice for you to meet me!! Ha, ha, ha!! You can call me Lobida; I'm Sugar to my friends. Ha, ha, ha, ha!!
"So Angel Stevie wants me to tell you what it feels like to be me. What it's like to have the Eight fixation running the show. It feels great!! Well . . . mostly. "I love that I have boundless energy, and the almost continuous motivation to be having a good time. My personal motto: 'If you're not on your way to the next party, you're on your way to the grave!!' "My family didn't have a chance, poor sods. They tried treating me nice . . . and I shoved nice back in their faces. They tried treating me bad . . . and I shoved bad back in their faces. Win, win for me; lose, lose for them. Such a shame, suckers!! "So what would you like to know? Is it all fun and games? That's how it looks from the outside, isn't it? A little party here, a bit of debauchery there. An excess of cocaine last night; an excess of pills and booze tonight. Sometimes it does get to be a drag to be up all the time, I have to admit. People do expect me to be the life of the party . . . so I am!! Waiter, more Champagne!! "Aren't people stupid though? You know what I mean? I get so pissed off when I'm confronted with stupidity . . . and I let the dumb f*%&ers know all about it. I've always said there's no use pussy-footing around being nice to people when they've got a lesson to learn. Learn it, damn you, or get out of my face!! "Does it get me into trouble? My big mouth, you mean? Yes sir!! You better be damned sure it does. "Is that a problem? Hell to the no!! Bring it on, I say. The only problem is that most people don't have the balls to back up their words; they're all talk and no action. One little jibe from me and they're out the door. Pussies!! Bye, bye. "Do I like to be in charge? Are you kidding me? That aint even a question, is it? Nobody does it better, baby, and don't you forget it, or your sorry ass gonna be whipped to Mars and back. "Phew, it's hot in here. Anyone wanna buy a lady a drink? . . ." |
"You're really pissing me off right now."
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"THE WARRIOR"
"Now, when I stop dominating everyone I meet (gasp); when I admit that I'm not always right (gasp); when I don't indulge the need to be the most fabulous person in the room (gasp); when I'm humble and vulnerable (gasp); and when I give up control (GASP); then my body shakes with the volcano of rage that's been squashed into my panties, or spat out at the world, my whole life.
"As this rage is allowed to be present without it being externalized, as I would normally do, it feels like I'm waking up out of a bad dream, and coming alive in a totally new way. It's exciting. Most surprising of all, I'm finding a precious, tender part of myself that I don't have to hide or protect anymore; I can just let it be. This tender part is like pure innocence, pure humility; it feels quite delightful.
"When I stay centred and present, with a quiet mind and an open heart, I can see that my needs are not the most important thing in the world. I find myself doing things for other people without needing anything in return, and I find I'm highly motivated to do so."
"As this rage is allowed to be present without it being externalized, as I would normally do, it feels like I'm waking up out of a bad dream, and coming alive in a totally new way. It's exciting. Most surprising of all, I'm finding a precious, tender part of myself that I don't have to hide or protect anymore; I can just let it be. This tender part is like pure innocence, pure humility; it feels quite delightful.
"When I stay centred and present, with a quiet mind and an open heart, I can see that my needs are not the most important thing in the world. I find myself doing things for other people without needing anything in return, and I find I'm highly motivated to do so."
FAMOUS EIGHTS:
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