THE ONE FIXATION (THE INTERIORIZED ANGER POINT)
MRS. CHU
"Hello. My name is Lola, but everyone calls me Mrs. Chu. Angel Stevie wants me to tell you what it's like living with the One fixation. Well, it's stiff, rigid, righteous, and full of resentment. Oh, and judgmental. That pretty much sums it up.
"Is that enough Angel Stevie? I've got another meeting to get to. No? OK, just a little bit more then. "Well, I spend most of my days making sure that everything gets done correctly; there's rarely any time to relax. Not only do I have to be constantly on guard to make sure that I'm doing everything perfectly, but I also have to be on everyone else's case as well; it's exhausting, actually. "Is it not a fact that just about everyone in the entire world, particularly politicians, are either stupid or lazy? Right? You know what I mean, don't you? You look pretty smart. "And no one pays attention to details these days. My personal motto: 'The proof is in the detail.' "Now I'm not completely uptight all the time . . . although my son, William, might disagree. Sometimes I don't clean up William's mess until the following day. I just get so nervous about disease. You really don't want cockroaches, ants, and flies invading your cupboards and surfaces. Pretty soon there'll be Ebola on the Lower East Side, then I'll be busy saving lives in a hazmat suit, and have even less time to save the world from global warming and finish that tapestry I started back in 1987. "Questions? Yes, I'm a social subtype. I think it's pretty obvious, don't you? Family is extremely important, and I do like to tell other people the way things should be; that's just who I am. Like it, or leave it!! "The only problem I have really is that there aren't more of me. If I could just have a team of 100 Mrs. Chu's for a few weeks, the world would be cleaned up and ship-shape in no time. Can you imagine? I'd be running the government; I'd be monitoring the multinationals; I'd be shutting down coal power stations and making it compulsory to install solar panels on every roof; recycling would be mandatory; I would pretty much control how everybody lives their lives. Global warming would be a thing of the past in no time at all. "What's that dear? I sound like Hitler, or Stalin? Perhaps I do, but when I'm right—which is only all the time—why let things be done poorly when I know I can do them better myself . . ." |
"THE RULER"
"Now, when I relax; when I let go of the need to be in control of everything all the time; when I stop believing that I'm always right; when I breathe, and allow other people to be themselves; when I stop judging myself, other people, and the world for not being perfect; when I let things be, and allow life to run its course naturally, then I feel completely out of control . . . and it feels thrilling and exciting. It's this anger that I've suppressed my whole life coming up. It feels like it's lighting me up, as it were.
"All of the time and energy that used to go into making sure things were done my way can then be channeled into helping other people, but without it becoming my agenda. There's such a lightness and joy in this, I can't quite believe it.
"When I stay centred and present, with a quiet mind and an open heart, I'm quite naturally drawn to help people or situations that need support. Before I was an activist, but I was an angry, judgmental, resentful activist, and I would get burned out quickly. Now I'm an activist, but I'm a kind, caring, sacred activist. It's so much more fulfilling, and it's infinitely more effective."
"All of the time and energy that used to go into making sure things were done my way can then be channeled into helping other people, but without it becoming my agenda. There's such a lightness and joy in this, I can't quite believe it.
"When I stay centred and present, with a quiet mind and an open heart, I'm quite naturally drawn to help people or situations that need support. Before I was an activist, but I was an angry, judgmental, resentful activist, and I would get burned out quickly. Now I'm an activist, but I'm a kind, caring, sacred activist. It's so much more fulfilling, and it's infinitely more effective."